Never Alone

I'm surrounded by people.
People who love me,
people who hate me,
people who adore me,
people who spite me.
Yet, with all the company
I can find myself with,
I still feel alone.

Why is it this way Father?
If it's not their fault,
surely it must be mine.
If I'm not ostracized,
surely it's I who shun away.
Do I keep others out?
Am I afraid to connect?
Maybe, it's who I am.

I will befriend this loneliness,
it'll be my closest friend.
I will not despair in solitude,
when I find myself in barren lands.
I will toil and cultivate
this vast lonely desert.
Then, the living water will flow
giving life to desolate grounds.
The solitude will provide,
the emptiness will sustain.
In this silence I will hear You.
When I am alone,
I will be closest to You.

Amen.